Tessa is now married to Jem and they have a daughter and she’s so happy, they’re all so happy. But I can’t help but think about what’s going to happen to Tessa as they grow old without her, it’s happened before with Will, James, and Lucie, and to put it as simple as possible, it was hard for her and was hard for many years after. Having to outlive not only your love but your kids as well is painful. Meeting Jem at Blackfrairs Bridge all those years is something that helped her hold on. But he’s no longer a silent brother, and although they are married with a child, it means he can no longer stay with Tessa forever. When he dies Tessa’s two greatest loves will be gone forever. Is she going to go with Jem to join Will in the afterlife? She misses Will terribly. Is she going to keep living after Jem dies or will she close the book on her life? She can’t die of old age so she would have to do something to herself and I don’t know how Jem would feel about that. What would he tell her: that he will happily cross with her over to the next life or ask her to stay? When Mina is born Tessa thinks of how painful it’s going to be having to yet again watch as her love and child have to grow old without her and their deaths. Does she have plans to stay, or is she ready to cross with Jem and meet Will again?

okay hear me out :D

Cordelia’s hair is red

RED by Taylor Swift is about hurting while being in love, the intensity of love and the pain it can cause when a love burns too bright

James’s eyes are golden

Lover by Taylor Swift is about the happiness of loving and being loved with a motif of love being golden, love just as intense but without the hurting

My point is Cordelia and James will go through great pains because of their love but they will make in the end. Together. And happy.

[I’m reaching at this point, really. I’m desperate, hahahaha.]

I have to be honest. Part of the reason why James “choosing” Grace over Cordelia hurt was that Grace is white and Cordelia is a person of color. I am a person of color too, so seeing Cordelia be a lead character in a series I love and making friends and falling in love and being happy (with characters I love too) meant so much to me. It made me so happy to see a brown girl like myself being happy with friends and falling in love, but it hurt when the boy she loves “chose” someone else. I know James is actually in love with Cordelia (”my Daisy”) and that he is being controlled and isn’t “in love” with Grace willingly, but it felt like a little jab to the heart having a girl of color be put aside by her love for a white girl. Like I said I know their true feeling but still it hurts to have to read through James telling Cordelia he “doesn’t love her.” I’m don’t know if anyone else feels like this. These are just my thoughts, that’s all.

Anyhow, I’m not overly hurt or anything. It’s just a thought.

I really thought Cordelia and James were in the clear BUT THEN GRACE’S BITCHASS HAD TO RUIN IT. IT HURTS, I AM IN PAIN AT THE THOUGHT OF CORDELIA THINKING JAMES DOESNT LOVE HER. WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE REMOVE THE DAMN BRACELET OR SOMETHING!!!! YOURE TELLING ME THEY WERE ABLE TO TRACK DOWN A GREATER DEMON AND PRINCE OF HELL AND KILL HIM AND EVEYTHING BUT DONT GROW SUSPICIOUS OVER A BRACELET THAT WHEN TAKEN OFF CHANGED JAMES DRASTICALLY